Keeping busy

So I have been trying to think of things to do on my days off unless I get a new job with more hours.  I had been motivated to go to the gym but lately I had been feeling a bit blah.  I need some motivation methinks but just haven't wanted to.  

Since I became officially single, my life had been such an emotional roller coaster and don't ask about my disastrous non-existent love life(what is that??)  People are like "don't waste your time looking, he'll come to you" or "work on loving yourself"

Really?  How long will that take exactly?

I don't bother anymore, I have enough to deal with.  If God wants me to be with someone He will make it happen when he knows I'm ready and know that I don't want to completely rely on my vibrator horrific dating sites my predictable intuition which isn't always right from the start.

So what do I do to keep busy when I'm not working?

Bible study on Tuesday (positive people and environment)

Zumba (working the fat off and being around great ladies, positive)

Chilling out at Barnes and Noble(reading self-help books, pondering the meaning of life, positive)

So what the hell am I bitching for about wanting a man?  I do enough to sustain my life...

Oh yeah, theres that one thing called 

Absolute loneliness

Need I say more?

Why I love my gay friends

I have had the pleasure of spending my weekend with a group of gay men from a facebook group I am involved in.  I decided to spend the time with them after the emotional week I had.  Let me tell you that even though *at the moment* I'm done with men I know that I will "eventually" meet the one I'm supposed to be with.

Ever since my ex and I split and finally divorced I still have bad luck with men.  I am the kind of person who is caring, honest, and outgoing.  I have realized that the guys I have met like wacked out, shallow, daddy issues, skinny girls (and I'm emphasizing on the word girls).  I also realized that I'm near an army base but still, these guys should have some kind of class.

I just am tired of the liars, the guys who can't figure out what they want, the ones who just want in your pants, the ones who are scared of the word "commitment" *gasp*she said the c word!

Let me tell you one thing, I have not had this much fun this past weekend in a long time and its all thanks to gay men and let me tell you I hardly ever give credit to men in general mainly because of my issues and past experiences with them.

But after tears dried and happiness replaced depression I know I have my guys to help me when tears come again and depression sets off my usual happy mood.  I am single and I'm okay with that.

POF and why its really pointless

So I have been on and off this free dating site called Plenty of Fish.  Why is it pointless you ask?  Because even though its free, you get exactly what you paid for if you get my drift.  It doesn't matter what you look like because you will never be good enough for these tools and some of the guys that do contact you just want to get laid.  I have met a few guys, some friends that I talk to every now and then and some who just wanted to get in my pants.  This site is mainly for the ones who don't want a very serious relationship even though they stress it in their oh-so-awesome profile..ya know the pics of them sky diving and deep sea fishing and fighting alligators. 

Or guys like this who think they are too cool for girls like me

I do have to say one good thing about the site, my very good friend met a guy off there and now they are married.  That is a story thats few and far between when it comes to this site.

I think I have come to the conclusion that meeting guys the old fashioned way is much better than wasting my time on a "get laid quick" dating site.